Prevarication has become my master recently, which has made me a little cross with myself. Since the move I have been gagging to get on and create and just generally "Be" and "Do". Of course, the practice is not always a easy, but losing a PC along the way has not helped, and I now find myself in a daily battle with myself for motivation. I only seem to react when I hear the sound of a deadline galloping headlong towards me screaming "Get on with it you lanky git". Of course, it is easy to dismiss this as perfectly normal behaviour for me, and I'm sure anyone who knows me would suggest that this is the norm. However, I have been a busy little bee over the last few years, and I think i am a different beastie now. I recently heard an interview with Russell Crowe, where he spoke in warm terms of his relationship with Director Ridley Scott. He said that someone on the crew of their recent film had made an observation about Ridley, in that he only made decision that he had to at the time they needed to be made. This was, in Russell'd eyes, a strength, and something therefore to admire. I thought about this, as it is pretty much how I tend to run my life, and I cam to the conclusion that it is utter piffle. Were we all to run our lives like that there would be complete chaos. I have come to this conclusion as I have several deadlines approaching me, and I am not sure that I can use the excuse that I will make a decision at the time and sell this as some kind of wisdom. I hope if ever I am in the enviable position of having that kind of money and support on a project that I don't turn into a half wit also. Anyway, this has conveniently wasted another few minutes of my valuable time, and to a small degree has cheered me up a little. It has not helped me to write any of the session plans I need to write, neither has it assisted me in the mountain of filling I need to do. In no way could I describe it as a major contribution towards the two plays that I am currently writing, and might I add, producing all at the same time. I don't believe it would be entirely honest to suggest it has assisted in all the emails I need to reply to and the letters I need to send. However....if nothing else, it stopped me going on Twitter.
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